I really am not sure as to how i am to start this entry. Right now, i'm just feeling very unhappy due to a few reasons. One of which is my fringe now looks worse than it was before coz i asked my ma to cut it for me. I have my reasons for doing so. Don't ask and stop criticising..i know what some you are thinking and i'm not pleased with it.

Do all of you think you're so great?? HUR??!! Why does everyone keep questioning me?? Do i look like a book of answers?? I do not have a whole lot of confidence and my own self doubt and contradictions are longer and thicker than the Great Wall of China. Be satisfied!! Let me be and let me just love you like that. I need no reasons and neither do i need anymore questions. Do you not know me well enough already? Maybe for you, the questions do not change anything. But it does to me. I am a skeptic and cynic.

What do all of you stand to gain from knowing me?

How much do all of you actually love me as a friend or partner or acquaintance?

Does my thinking matter to all of you?

I try to take care of everyone's pride and ego. Do all of you do that for me?

Does anyone..anyone at all care about how i feel until it's all too late and harm has been done?

Does the word 'sorry' actually mean anything to any of you? Even if any of you really mean all the sorries that you've said, my healing process is a lonely one and will always be. Just like studying.

This is just a blog entry. It does not mean anything. I just needed a "cup" that screams get lost in. Thanks for reading. I really appreciate it. And sorry for not blogging for so long. I had been very worn out from work. I'll try to keep up with my blog but no promises. I still love all of you.